Currently Listening Discovering the Waterfront By Silverstein see related

- dicovering the waterfront

hey guys,

 i havnt written in a long while, been busy.

things have been good though, like volleyball starts tomorrow ^_^. sooo excited, its like camp a.k.a. tryouts....even though i no i already made varsity....OoOoO i cant wait, volleyball!!! woohoo, i havnt played in a week....but i've been working out like crazy every day for a while now. 2 hours a day, i want to be good so bad its not even funny... and school season doesnt even matter that much, its all about club..... i want to make elite this year... i need to make elite this year..... thats the only thing im nervous about

other then that, me and kevin have been doing really really good, no problems. i went camping with him and a few other ppl last weekend...no parents. it was me, kevin, meli (kevins sister), ric( her boyfriend), steph (kevins cousin), ashley and nickie (kevins cousins friends), danny, (rics brother), anna (his girlfriend) and suria ( rics family friend). we had sooo much fun, but what happens in lake george, stays at lake george lol.

 it was soooo pretty though, like i love it up there. like i want to grow old there with the certain special some one, and if i die b4 i get the chance, thats were im going to be. u might not be able to see me, but ill be there, trust me on that. if there is any possible way, it will happen.

BUCKO

and its been 7 months since the last time i gave in, lets see how long i can last b4 i do it again......

Currently Listening What to Do When You Are Dead By Armor for Sleep see related

why am I soo fucking bipolar
>_<

i cant take this, and i dont want to let people know how im feeling but i need to get it out.

fuck fuck fuck fuck

BUCKO

Currently Listening Move Along By All American Rejects see related

- straitjacket feeling/move along

current mood:

BUCKO

Currently Listening Wreck of the Day By Anna Nalick see related

- in the rough

I'm lucky.... really really lucky, and i cant ask for more then i have now. Nothing will ever be perfect, i know, so i will never even think of that as a goal to reach. My life now is simple, my past isnt, but the present...well that word has 2 meanings, for me they go hand in hand. some people wont understand the last line, but i dont care. It makes sense to me like evey thing else now.
i have every thing going for me now, and i know that tomorrow it can all die and vanish, become a memory and then eventually be forgotten, but the thing is....i dont care.
to the people that i do love, you have my whole heart and my trust. i know wut i said before is different from that of wut im saying now but i dont care...I've changed my mind more then once in the past few months. my life has been changing fast, and it shows no sign of slowing down, and i dont want it to.

my life is just as amazing as the people in it, especially one certain person, who i love, mucho grande... ur wonderful

BUCKO

Currently Listening Dear Diary, My Teen Angst Has a Bodycount By From First to Last see related

- RIDE THE WINGS OF PESTILENCE

your such a fucking ass hole

I cant stand u anymore, u make it seem like we're so close and we do every thing but ur just a fucking prick. all u keep doing is putting ur friends infront of me and i cant stand it, and u wonder y i never tell u shit.

trust me there is alot of crap u dont no, sooo much its not even funny. and when ever u pull this type of shit is when i pull just a little bit farther away from u.

ur a liar and a disappointment......lies and let-downs...thats all u give me

thanks Paula, really, i love u too

and ur not going to make up for this any time soon...i dont even want to look at u yet alone talk to you... no one has hurt in a long time and the last person i expected it to be was you...
congratulations, cant wait till you leave for fucking NYU, u'll have fun there with a new wave of prissy assholes that wont give two-shits about u but u'll pick above me........

BUCKO